She grips a black rose
a little too tight
the thorns bite
piercing skin
She welcomes the pain
and her blood flows
a scarlet river
down the stem
© All Rights Reserved A. F. Stewart
NaPoWriMo Day Four
Why do your words sound
strange?
Why do you stand there so
close?
What do you want from
me?
Why do you make me feel
afraid?
Why did you follow me
home?
Please, can you leave me
alone?
Wait, what are you doing
now?
Why are you …
You’re hurting me.
Let go!
Stop! No!
What did I do to deserve
this?
Why did you have to…
© All Rights Reserved A. F. Stewart
Through the undressed trees, the wind howls
a wild shriek of fury spent, but never quashed
A thin voice wavers, yet still it’s heard…
There’s nothing to be done, for I am lost
A wild shriek of fury spent, but never quashed
despite the vanquished, despite the insurgence
of boldness, the resolve towards supremacy
A thin voice wavers, yet still it’s heard
Above the roar that stains the dark lit sky
A noise in vain, the resonance of defiance
There’s nothing to be done, for I am lost
my will long spent amid the damage
my withered bones to lay forgotten
© All Rights Reserved A. F. Stewart
They come in Silence
on the westbound zephyr
hovering black on black
waiting deep within the night
They come in Silence
but it shall not last forever
Do well to guard your back
lest your screams greet the light
© All Rights Reserved A. F. Stewart
The Storm is moving closer
The peace, the security;
Anger strikes out knowing no reason.
The weakness to be strong
the elusive quality of tears;
a sorrow lifted.
The knowledge of the alluding strength
– my salvation –
The holy water of your tears
turns me to bitter wine.
– Goodbye –
The walls cannot crumble
The heart does not break apart, evenly
The intensity of feeling, the passionate emotion;
Nearness, togetherness…
Distance, innocence…
– Au Revoir –
To know my soul, my heart
open the windows, my windows…
Look behind the curtain
to my soul, through my eyes
– Welcome –
The Keeper of the Walls
© All Rights Reserved Kim Koning.
Pain
Receding and returning
Burning, constantly churning
Alone
alone
The feelings
indescribable
ever elusive
Emotionally abhorrent
mentally abusive
An act, a mask
a tear behind a smile
The wall shutting out
the pain
the fear
Unapproachable
My heart at odds
no hearts breaking even
Twisting and turning
my strength keeps me burning
yearning…
The once insuring strength
always an alluding weakness;
The Keeper of the Walls
the key, the entry, was…
But one has touched the brick,
the wall; a barricaded entry
An allusion of uncertainty
veiled by the cool
collected calm
– Two –
© All Rights Reserved Kim Koning.
Undisturbed turbulence veiled by a calm tranquility,
Unleashed by the Earth’s might
Let its Spirit enfold;
Strange yet magnificent in its complexity
Known to change the essence of the mould.
The placidity, complex in the very simplicity
Known to affect the heart of the matter;
The slow ebb and flow of this inner city
One heightened wave meant to shatter.
The crest at the height
One with both the sun of the day
And the ghostly night shadowed in opaque moonlight;
Ebb and flow, ebb and flow nearing the bay.
Tumult of the heart, contradiction in the mind
Causing torment and pain with an ever-present falter;
Reason and logical thought bound as if by a halter:
Innocence borne out of knowledge
Ceased is the ability to solve,
A problem without the logic of college
All that is needed is involved;
One solution is true:
The answer of Love is the glue
meant to shatter,
in truth to matter…
© All Rights Reserved Kim Koning.
No sight is ever left behind,
Except when money can be made,
Then the ignorance is palpable,
Preying on all the dupable,
It is their only stock and trade,
By them all evil is defined…
They love only their own kind,
Only for a price is fury stayed,
Though they are quite capable,
Yours is a loss acceptable,
Your wages are already paid,
Just another of the lowly blind…
No straight path you’ll ever find,
Save the trenches where the young are laid,
You become one of countless parables,
By your blood, our land is arable,
By your loyalty you are betrayed,
Trust them, you won’t even mind…
Ages past, the contract was signed,
Paper, ink, and seal decayed,
Untarnished though, are all the fables,
You dream of feasts at heavenly tables,
Until every hair has greyed,
Then at last, your coffin is lined…
It has been too long, I fear,
Since this stony cheek has felt a tear,
Too long since I made the choice,
To wrong her and lose her voice…
Somewhere in the shadow of these fears,
Something bitter coaxes sweet tears,
Reviewed, the aftermath of so many choices,
Imbued by all of their loving voices…
My heart is a rock and a hard place,
My love is between it, hiding her face,
Lest I say again what should have been,
Ignoring once more the quandary within…
Of all the times, of all the places,
Through all the pages, and all the faces,
Worn like the statue I shall ever be,
Can’t keep the cracks from letting the rain in…
Urging on tears, encroached by jeers,
Conscience sears, no cries it hears,
Of my sins dears, acceptance nears,
On the verge of years…
Seasons change, mountains turn to sand,
Rivers run dry, sea withers to land,
But my brutality shall last forever,
Never shall I loosen this hand,
Ever will it bear the brand…
First to shed blood,
To cry remorseful tears,
Left my brother in the mud,
Forgot his name after many years.
All for a sacrifice born of vanity,
Rejection drove me to insanity,
My only recourse was to sever,
Turned sacred ritual into profanity,
Sold for a song my humanity…
Tears become a flood,
As conscience sears,
At that sickening thud,
Confirming darkest fears.